Post that got deleted. Written April 29, 2008

Hello,This is my first blog entry. This is kind of weird for me to just write about my day or things I am thinking about. I guess I'll start with how my day was. My day was fine, however I've been quite stressed out lately. I have so much to get accomplished and very little time to complete it all. On May 12th I must have a monologue prepared to do in front of all the arts staff at my school and theatre level 4. On May 21st I am doing a performance of Agnes of God so by then I must have a greater understanding for my character of Mother Superior, which up until today has been a complete and utter burden. Today we had a rehersal during acting class for Agnes of God, and we did something called an Italian Speed-Through. It was probably the most chaotic and wonderful thing I've ever done in theatre. An Italian Speed-Through is when you say all of your lines as fast as you can, and all of your movements and words need to be as large and crazy as possible. It was wonderful to just let go and not care about what the outcome would be. I felt free, and I wasn't thinking, I was just doing. I think that is when art happens. When you stop thinking, and stop trying. My teacher Brian Goranson once quoted someone, and I can't remember who at the moment, but he said "creativity happens between thoughts." I thought that was interesting, and completely true. On a more shallow topic, this Friday I have a chemistry test in which I am completely unprepared to take. I understand absolutely no part of chemistry whatsoever. It is not how my brain works. There is just so much homework to do, and I always have so much on my mind. I also need to read In Cold Blood for my Honors American Literature class, and do a research paper/ presentation on the book and also on Truman Capote. I also am dying to pick up Eckhart Tolle's book A New Earth again. My mind is craving it. I have just been so busy, but I guess it's my fault because right now I could be expanding my mind and understanding of myself by reading that book, instead I am sitting at a computer blogging about my very lame day. "So it goes". (I just finished reading Slaughter House- Five, and have now been living by that quote.) I got Madonna's new CD Hard Candy today I think that it is good. Madonna is in phenomenal shape and her new sound is pretty cool. I like that she is always changing. She is a very bold and eccentric reflection of the way all of us change over the years. We are always evolving and always growing. I think that's pretty much all for tonight. I will be sure to blog again about my probably uneventful day again tomorrow.Happy Birthday Michelle Pfeiffer :)