The Plane is Crashing

For the past few months I have had a handful of dreams where I am in airplanes that crash or experience severe turbulence. I also had one two nights ago about a collapsing bridge.

One night I had a series of plane-crashing dreams. One of them, I was in an airport that was being attacked by what seemed like a terrorist attack. Planes crashed into the airport, the glass ceiling shattered and I was in the center of it all. Later in that same dream there were many cubicles of injured people. I just walked through looking in each room. Another was I was on the plane and it crashed into the ground. I survived. Then, I got on another plane that crashed into a building, but I survived this one as well. I jumped out of the plane in a parachute, almost crashed into a construction crane but landed on the ground. There may have been one or two other crashes, but I can't recall them.

Two nights ago I was on a bridge where I was accompanied by Emma Thompson (that was the good part). I went up to her and told her how much I admired her and we hugged. We ended up talking for awhile then the bridge began to shake. She dropped her purse off of the bridge and I just ran. There was lava beneath the bridge, and I woke up.

Since there is a reoccuring theme of me being apart of some destruction I thought I would do a little research about what this could all mean.

To transfer from plane to plane is, "implies an important transitional phase in your life which will take you away from your intended path. These changes will take you to new directions and new heights of status and recognition."

Dreams of planes crashing according to an online source is, "Suggests that you have set overly high and unrealistic goals for yourself. Your goals may be too high and are impossible to realize. You are in danger of having it come crashing down. Alternatively, your lack of confidence, self-defeating attitude and self-doubt toward the goals you have set for yourself is represented by the crashing airplane; you do not believe in your ability to attain those goals. loss of power and uncertainty in achieving your goals are also signified."

These seem to be contradicting themes, yet they both make sense. I worry so often about my future and my career. Can I handle the dream I've dreamt? Will I survive the industry? Will I keep going even after being beaten down? It does seem like a very large and unattainable dream, but at the same time. I believe I can attain it. If I work hard. What I fear the most is letting myself down. That I will take so much rejection that I will quit.

Acting is the one thing I've always been certain about so the thought of leaving it behind is terrifying.

The thing is, all my life I have had time. Time to dream and to kill before really working to achieve my goals. The time is almost up. I no longer have the time I had to dream. The time has come to work hard. Right now is when I have to make my dreams come true. The next few years of my life are crucial in determining how the rest of my life will turn out. It's a lot of pressure.

If I stay focused and put my blinders on, as so many people have told me to do, I should get to where I'm going.

What I need most in myself is faith.