As Far As You Know...

Something occured to me when I was working out today.

I really don't know why I blog. I know that no one besides my own mother reads it. Obviously I'm not blogging to find success nor to entertain anyone because no one can be entertained if no one knows I am here.

Anyways, here goes another post for no one to read.

Since no one is reading I will say whatever I want.

Well I think I'll start with... Fuck, I hate parents. (Yes, I just said fuck.) A friend of mine said it would be cool if I were to spend a few days at her house, and I think I just might do that.

I want to get away. I want to walk around late at night, and I want to enjoy my last few weeks of freedom. I am going to do what I want only for a few days. I don't do everything I want to do at any other time, so I think I have the write as a human being to take some time to make bad choices whether you think its a bad idea or not.

Now, I'm sure my parents can't see what it is I could possibly want to get away from. A 16 year old, especially a 16 year old like me, couldn't possibly have anything to get away from. Maybe it's just nothing that they would consider to be bad. They definitely need a break from me too, so I don't see what the problem is. Apparently I am a self absorbed-over dramatic-smart mouthed- self righteous-girl who has a stick up her ass and her nose in the air all the time.

Well, I'm not going to apologize for what I've done or how I act. There's a reason for all of it, and I'm just not sorry you don't see that.

Fuck, let me be a self absorbed-over dramatic-smart mouthed-self righteous-girl. It's not your problem.

I am so god damn tired of being controlled. I've been controlled forever. All my life I have been the good girl. If I've made mistakes my parents were the first to know.

I told them when I drank. As far as they know, every time I have ever drank I told them.

I told them when I smoked. As far as they know, every time I have ever smoked I told them about it.

I've always been a good student. I maintain good grades, and I always finish my homework. As far as they know, all of my homework is filled with correct answers that I figured out on my own.

I'm not going to throw my life away for a pack of cigarettes or a bottle of Raspberry Vodka, but what I will do is have a kick ass rest of the summer because for the rest of the year and the first half of next year I'll be back to the good girl.

I don't want to hear your mouth either because as far as you know I made this whole blog up.