Better or Worse

Last Thursday I got my drivers lisence. I was so excited because a week before that (the previous Wednesday) I took my drivers test and failed it. The reason I failed was becasue of an unmarked road. I had never seen a road like that and couldn't remember ever learning about them so I didn't know what to do. Since the road was unmarked I couldn't figure out if it was a one way or two way and the woman told me to take a left. So, since I didn't have much time to make a decision about whether it was a one way or a two way I got into the far far left lane to make a left turn. Well... that far far left lane was for opposing traffic and pulling into oncoming traffic is an automatic fail.
I was so upset. The minute my mom and I got into the car to go home I started crying. I was so mad that I didn't pass because of such a dumb mistake. I beat myself up over it until I passed my test on my second try. On my first test I parked fine and did everything right except turning left on that damn unmarked road.
I'm not a person who is used to failing at anything. My entire life, things always come easily to me, and I always get my way eventually. I'm not sure why that is, good karma maybe. I'm definitely not complaining but it's possible this good karma streak can soon end if I don't realize that I am human and I am bound to fail at some things.
I guess since I have been getting what I want since I was little I feel invincible. I've never had to really suffer for what I want. I've always wanted to suffer though. When I was younger I would look at all the celebrities and listen about all of their struggle stories. I thought the only way I would be able to get my biggest dream and live happily is if I suffered. So I created dramas. In middle school I used to do certain things I normally wouldn't. Along with those acts, I listened to dark music and I was someone I'm not.
Throughout my entire upbringing, I've blamed so much of my fears of affection and love on my father. Him being gone when I was younger is just a part of my drama. I don't even remember those times because I was so young, but I figure I could use that as an excuse for a lot of my problems. Problems I love to have.
Unfortunately, this makes me like my grandmother. My grandmother is not somebody I would like to immitate. However, I do have a great deal of her flaws.
I'm sure all of this easy living will catch up with me when I'm older. At least that's what I'm told will happen. Of course, I am only 16 how much suffering does a 16 yer old typically endure? Apparently a lot, but not for me. Some of my friends and a lot of my acquaintences have ridiculously challenging lives. They have abusive and addicted parents, hardly any money, and hardly any money saved for college. They deal with eating disorders and drug and alcohol problems. Most all of them have some guy problem.
I hardly have any of these problems. Some I do, but not even close to as extreme.
I don't know if what my life has become is good or bad. I can't decide if getting what I want is better or worse than suffering.