I Thought Yes

I was planning on writing about this yesterday, but I decided not to.
Yesterday, I was working, and instead of doing my usual texting when I was bored at work I decided to lay down on the grass for a bit and think.
I mostly thought of contentment. I asked myself, "if my life were to stay this way forever, could I be happy?" It took awhile, and my mind turned back and forth for the right answer, but I came to a yes.
That doesn't mean I wouldn't work to achieve more, but I could be happy the way my life is now. I have aspirations and a good head on my shoulders. I thought about acting, and of course along with that thought comes my thoughts of Meryl and how much I want to work with her. I wondered if I could be happy without ever knowing her. I thought yes. I wondered if I could ever be happy without winning an Oscar. I thought yes.
As I was thinking, an orange white and brown bird landed on the branch of a tree near me. I observed it move its head in mechanical motions. I also saw it poop quite nonchalantly, and foudn that somewhat entertaining.
As I did, I continued to think about things. I thought about my weight, what my life would turn into, and what my life could turn into.
For awhile I have looked to birds as signs. When birds fly directly over my head, it is a sure sign of hope for me.
Not really thinking about that, I closed my eyes trying to feel content. Instead of feeling contentment I thought of acting, and all of my goals that are tied to acting. The desires I constantly have burning inside of me felt stronger than usual this time. It only lasted a couple of seconds because I heard noise around my head. I opened my eyes, and saw about 3 or 4 black birds fly directly over my head. I smiled and laughed to myself, and four words came to my mind. Everything will be alright.
In that moment, I realised that everything would be okay, and that my struggles of worrying about how my future will turn out should be let go. It is time for me to trust because I will get everything I've ever wanted.
Then, the bird on the branch hopped off and flew over my head. I laid there with complete faith. This experience couldn't have been a coincidence. I don't care what anyone says because I know everything will be okay.